Nothing to forgive

It took a long time

For the tears to come

To recognize there was

Nothing to forgive

Nothing to resent

That the weakness that hurt

Was buried in confused love

Trying not to drown,

In unfulfilled hopes, dreams

And the expectations

All those expectations

That dead weight

Pulling you down

And as you thrashed and flailed

and postured to escape

You hurt with no intent

The innocent who loved you

And in doing so

Failed yet again.

And now with time and distance

I can see that, feel that

And find myself with tears

Finally, at your passing.